howfarfromhere

 19. 11. 2021 I am about to go to my night shift at the hospital. I am still in Dorchester, it has been over a year! So far I dated Jamie for 6/12 and broke up. He meets all the criteria for a narcissist and in a way that relationship took a toll. It was painful but actually opened up so many questions about my own childhood, my life and my own inner world. Why did I let him in?  Therapy helped.  Now here I am 4 days into my 32nd year - I have a new boyfriend. Will. Who is a different breed, he is kind but inexperienced. I feel like I am making sense of myself again, some new questions in me have arisen.  As for this year. I can feel the stress mounting up with surgical exams, I can feel the uneasiness already! I need to manage myself.  So dear stress, I can handle you. If I fail this, then fine, it was an excuse to fly home anyway. I am grateful for this year in England. It gave me the opportunity I wanted, to really work in A&E (ironically I said no matter...